The ringing of the phone jolted me from sleep. It was a recorded message announcing school closure because of hazardous travel conditions. I thought to myself, “This is great! I get to sleep in rather than get up when the alarm goes off!” So I turned the alarm off and snuggled back in to enjoy more precious shut-eye.
That was 5:30 am. I had another hour or more to sleep. But alas, I was already too wake. Not wanting to get up, I decided to drop into a meditative state and tune into what the Divine might want to say. The invitation went something like this…
Imagine you just woke up into a brand new life. All your memories of the past and thoughts about who you are have simply vanished. All the boundaries and limitations you’re so used to living within are gone. Anything is possible. You can be anything you decide. You can do anything you want.
In my mind’s eye I imagined myself stepping into a huge empty space, like a cavernous warehouse. I was filled with a sense that this huge space was there for me to expand into. And there was no longer anything from my past to govern or limit my sense of myself. I felt an incredible, yet scary, freedom. Along with that I was aware that I could create myself, just by my thoughts and choices, into whatever I wanted to be. I could experience whatever I wanted to experience. I could do whatever I wanted to do. I could expand to become as big as I wanted to be. I was reminded of a phrase I heard from Rikka Zimmerman, “I am a field of infinite possibilities.”
So took in a taste of what it must feel like to be creator. To be the author of my own existence. To have space to expand my sense of self to include anything and everything, all at once.
Go ahead and try it! Maybe it will put a smile on your face like it did mine.
February 2015